I used to be different but now I’m the same

I’d love to take credit for this, but someone smarter than I earned that right. The whole process of transformation is summed up in this brilliant sentence:


Here’s what it says about me:

I used to try too hard
I used to deny myself my dreams
I used to live someone else’s life
I used to ignore my intuition
I used to wear a disguise
I used to lack confidence
I used to hide my truth
I used to pretend to be happy
I used to pretend to be happy
I used to pretend…

Then a series of events collided in the universe creating a crucible of extraordinary opportunity. Like the tectonic plates of the earth’s crust that move mere inches in a year holding back the bubbling turbulence below, the conditions leading up to my explosion into consciousness rode on the wild back of pent-up truth.

Truth is a slippery devil. If it’s something we don’t want to look at we create a version of the story, a half-truth or truth-and-a-half. Whatever it is, it avoids the bare brown kernel at the core. It enables us to exist without showing up. It allows us to remain in the magical version of our imagined reality. The gritty, glorious being inside is denied life.

A person with unlived truth never feels quite right. There’s always something a tad off. Work is unfulfilling. Relationships don’t last. Physical illness, mental illness, injuries, drugs, alcohol, pills, television, provide distractions or numb the experience.

So when I saw Virginia Bell’s post this morning, and read that sentence, I used to be different but now I’m the same, I said, “Yes!” I used to be that other person that didn’t fit with my truth, a shoddy remake of my original self.

There are a potent two weeks ahead. The heavy hitters are aligning to stir things up.  I’m no astrologer but I have tremendous respect for things that are bigger and older than I am. Stars and planets fall into that category. So I make it a point to read Virginia Bell and pay attention. Today she had this to say about the pungent arrangement in the heavens:

This aspect is like a mini-workshop; it’s an opportunity to break through old patterns and limiting beliefs, to deepen a relationship or finally release it, to recognize your shadow, to call back your soul. Like any recovery work it is painful, humbling and potentially life changing.

I can almost hear you, “Why would I want to sign up for that?” You don’t have to. It’s free. It will happen whether you take advantage of it or not. I’m going to sit down with pen and paper and have a conversation with myself. I don’t know what will come up. That’s the mysterious beauty of inner work. By allowing myself to enter the energetic flow I open to forces that support my curiosity. Revelation loves to pay a visit during times like these. Try it, but be careful! You may unearth a truth that terrifies you with it’s power and beauty. And you’ll know beyond question that it is the brown kernel, the core, the gritty you.

You can read Virginia’s entire post here:



The different

The different – smiling without the eyes


The same

The same – a soul reclaimed!


10 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Lottie Nevin
    Jun 18, 2014 @ 06:33:59

    Wow, Wow, WOW!! I’m so happy for you, Sherry. I’m ruled by Uranus so it will be interesting to see what comes up. Gosh you look lovely in your new photo, the NEW YOU! It’s true, ones eyes really do mirror our soul. Beautiful post, thank you xx



  2. Shane McRae
    Jun 18, 2014 @ 06:44:17

    Thankfully the the beautiful, true, real you influences all those around you in a profound way. I’m lucky to be one of those people.



  3. sageblessings
    Jun 18, 2014 @ 09:13:09

    Wonderful! I am crazy for before and after pix and yours is starkly different. Your smile now brings joy to all who receive it. Not unlike the Balinese………



  4. healingpilgrim
    Jun 28, 2014 @ 06:20:00

    I don’t mean to go against the grain, but I see the beauty in your eyes in the ‘before’ picture too; you had it in you every step of the way. Maybe it’s just unwrapped itself, become more magnified, expressive and fulsome since you landed in Bali 😉



  5. writingforselfdiscovery
    Jun 28, 2014 @ 06:30:07

    Amit, Amit, Amit! I did my best to kill it. Fortunately, the spark wasn’t completely snuffed. Bali rekindled the flame and fanned it to a mighty fire!



  6. Gus Philpott
    Oct 13, 2018 @ 10:02:11

    From Columbia, S.C. I first ran in this sentence after the est Training in Denver in May 1979. It was the title of a marketing video. Not sure if it can be found online.



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