I didn’t listen to Frank Zappa in the 60s, 70s, and 80s when he was at his most prolific. But when I found this quote, I pulled up his Live in Barcelona Concert on YouTube and fell instantly in love. What a satirist. What a brilliant and open mind.
Which mine wasn’t. You’ll see why.
It’s not that I haven’t been meditating. I have. Like a fiend. At this epic juncture in my life, I want all the help I can get and the Universe never lets me down. But, sometimes the messages coming through are obscure. Sometimes, they don’t look, sound, or feel like emissaries from a most powerful energetic source.
I’ve welcomed spirit guides in the most unusual forms that I won’t discuss here because I want to maintain a modicum of decorum for all of you who at least try to believe what I write. Those messengers, in whatever fantasmagorical shape they assume, have answered every question I’ve ever put out there in the most synchronistic and beautiful ways.
For that reason, I thought my mind was conditioned to promptings, especially when seated on my pillow fully focused on getting those downloads.
But today, as I sat trying to access that quiet dark place behind my eyes, intent upon merging with all beings, all energies, becoming one with the flow, a fly, yes, a common housefly infiltrated my space with no awareness of personal boundaries whatsoever. Concentration impossible, I leaped up, grabbed the flyswatter, and returned to my pillow. I had several perfect opportunities but swung and missed, swung and missed, swung and…
A while ago I read a book, If Truth be Told – A Monk’s Memoir the life story of Om Swami. A visual of the monk high in the Himalaya’s, sitting for hours in the bitter cold without eating, drinking, or allowing any distractions to interfere with his meditation, glided into my mind. Here I was getting hot and bothered over a common fly.
I took a deep breath. I would not kill the fly, not now, not ever. It seemed I couldn’t anyway, and once again I settled into the quiet.
The fly crawled up my arm. It traipsed across my shoulder and lit on my closed right eyelid. Suddenly, the light came on.
“No!” Laughter erupted, deep, ironic laughter. “No!” I said again. “You are NOT my spirit animal. I detest flies. Okay, Universe. I’ll admit you have a great sense of humor, but, a fly? No!” And yet, I knew. This fly was a resounding Yes. It had been tirelessly trying to get my attention and escaping all my efforts to annihilate it. This fly had a message.
Trying to meditate at that point was futile. I got up and Googled Fly Symbolism.
The Universe has creative ways of letting me know that I’m on the right path. The fly messenger was no different. The speed at which changes have unfolded for me in the past nine months, as baffling as it has seemed at times, was affirmed by the fly. It was the appropriate messenger with exactly what I needed to know for this moment.
I still don’t like flies, but this one, the one that’s dive-bombing my head even now while I’m paying it the ultimate compliment, has earned my respect and the right to co-exist with me until it dies a natural death or escapes through an open window. I’ve bonded with worse.
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Jul 26, 2022 @ 10:37:00
I don’t get it what is the fly’s message? And I have to say I’m not in total agreement with your next move to such a cold winter. I suffer here during winter in Melbourne Australia and it’s not nearly as harsh. Of course you can always chose to travel to warmer climes in winter.
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Jul 26, 2022 @ 20:52:22
The fly’s message is in the fly symbolism video in the middle of the blog. It goes like this:
1) Quick and abrupt changes in your emotions, thoughts, and purpose are about to happen
2) You need to move quickly even if the circumstances are unfavorable and uncomfortable
3) Do not give up on your intentions
4) Your persistence in achieving your goals will bear fruit sooner than later
5) It is okay to be occasionally selfish in pursuing them
6) An exponentially growing source of abundance is available for you
7) You can multiply your objectives, ventures, and prosperity at alarming rates
8) You possess the determination and strength to act quickly and utilize every opportunity you get
9) Balance your feelings of self-importance with a sense of humility and
10) You can adapt to any situation
It addressed every fear and desire I have regarding the huge changes ahead. I hope that answers your question.
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Jul 26, 2022 @ 18:15:42
I know you are perfectly serious about this although not my realm, but I did have to break out in hilarious laughter at your last sentence. I shall not ask who your “worse” were (or are).
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Jul 26, 2022 @ 21:14:08
The ‘who’ will remain a mystery known only to me, although I’m sure you could make an educated guess! And, yes, I’m perfectly serious about the benefits of meditation. It’s a realm of pure potentiality and mind-blowing revelations. It’s a doorway through which to access the manifestation of dreams and connect with your own subconscious ‘knowing.’ The experiences one has in meditation are limited only by the willingness to engage with energies vibrating throughout the universe that carry vast amounts of information. I don’t know how or why it works, but I believe intention and an open mind are key.
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Jul 27, 2022 @ 13:21:28
SWAAATTT that dirty fly. You do not know where it has been!
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Jul 27, 2022 @ 20:00:25
Normally, I’d hunt it, kill it, and drag it home! I haven’t seen it lately. I think its 15-30 day lifespan caught up with it.
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Jul 29, 2022 @ 22:17:17
Hola Vecina!
I’ve been following your posts and the fly messenger is brilliant!
After all those texts back and forth while you were considering to move to SMA, then your move here, I find it so interesting that I never got to connect with you, except for the brief time during the Jewish holiday at the church!
The Universe does always work in wonderful ways, SI? I wish you all the best on your next exciting adventure.
I’ve been in San Diego since July 6 and my visit keeps getting extended as life continues to unfold. First a house sit, then my Grand daughter’s wedding, and next week, seeing them again, as they will be moving here! Lucky me, they will be even closer then Las Vegas. I’m hoping my daughter and the rest of the family will follow within the year.
Another book about this chapter perhaps?
Abrazos, Alexsandra
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Jul 30, 2022 @ 01:25:04
The fly message was exquisite. I’ve written it out word for word and posted it where I see it all the time. I’ve referred to it several times daily since it came through and it is so pertinent for the moment I continue to be amazed.
We actually saw each other at dinner together with a few friends and another time at an interesting gathering where you sat outside the circle and tended the dogs! I’ve been very fortunate to have three neighbor women within steps of my door. We’ve become great friends and life here is a joy.
Another book about this next chapter…we’ll see. Blog posts, definitely, and articles perhaps. I can’t seem to muster the patience or still long enough to dedicate the time to another full-length book. If I had a writers’ group like the one in Bali to hold me accountable that could change things! Maybe I’ll start one. But I have to have chairs first!
Thanks for checking in, Alexsandra. You’re an inspiration! Stay strong!
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