Mind Control to Major Tom – No, wait…

I was certain that was the opening line to David Bowie’s Space Oddity.

It was 5 a.m. in Bali. Roosters crowed. Shadowy edges of sleep retreated. I reached for my phone and typed in those words, mind control to major tom. They’d registered so clearly as I hung in pre-consciousness. I wanted the lyrics – find out what message the Universe had sent through my dreams. I found it – whoops! Not Mind Control – Ground Control. Hmm, Freudian slip?

I read through the verses. The last one said it all:

Here am I floating round my tin can
Far above the Moon
Planet Earth is blue
And there’s nothing I can do.

Don’t listen to it unless you’re in a super cheery state of mind. It’s dark.

I could immediately relate. That sense of floating through the days, losing track of weeks, months. Planet Earth is indeed blue if you define blue as sadness. But is there really nothing I can do? Isn’t there always choice? Somewhere? I’ve built my life on the belief that there is, that I have sovereignty over my thoughts, that my thoughts dictate my reality.

So if my reality sucks, I’m the one to blame for not exercising mind control because, as realities go, I’m still living a golden life. It’s just different, very different from what it was before.

Once fully awake I felt the shift in energy. My gut told me this was a big deal, an opportunity to enter into a new agreement with myself. Mind control to Major Tom…get your shit together, human. Today’s the day. You need to jump on this power surge now. You’re being supported by forces beyond yourself to make this change.

After ten months, my morning ritual is sacrosanct. I don’t waiver from it. I don’t skip a day. To some, that may seem obsessive-compulsive but I’ll tell you what. It’s survival at its very basic level and I cling to that routine for dear life.

So I journalled, exploring the morning message with questions and words. Nadda.

Then I went through my yoga routine. Not even a whispered clue.

My last hope was meditation. I lit incense, put on my earth and sky mala beads, sank to the cushion and –


I wish, wish wish I had words for what happens in those moments. Sometimes it’s a quiet knowing. Not this time.

It was as though someone shouted at me –

Mental Reset

However, and this may give you some comfort, I don’t hear voices. Instead, the words sailed toward me through the sky in Arial Black typeface and entered my skull with a jolt. My eyes flew open. In that instant, the landscape transformed from overcast to radiant.

Do you remember being in love? Or better yet, being loved? My insides felt like that. Happy. Hopeful.

Everything is the same, yet everthing’s different and I’m still sorting it out. There’s a tickle that feels like maybe, just maybe I want to start writing again. (Blogs don’t count.) I no longer feel panicky about the future and I’ve lost the compulsion to try to plan for it. What an exercise in futility that is! I still miss family. I still see transition in my future. But my present is here, now, and it’s populated by precious relationships and equatorial green.

My gratitude bucket is bursting it’s seams.

Normally I’d pull this phenomenon apart piece by piece, looking at all the angles, wondering what I should DO with a new perspective, a mental reset. I process. It’s who I am.

But that’s the most amazing part. It’s done. All I had to DO was sit on the cushion. The rest was a direct download from the Universe. Zap! And my new operating system was installed and running.

I want to encourage you if you don’t already meditate, start now. It’s not just for ‘those yoga types’. It’s the doorway to accessing your intuition – the things you know that you don’t know that you know – the most powerful tool the mind has to offer. Everyone has it but few take time to develop it.

Alan Alda said it well:

“At times you have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you’ll discover will be wonderful. What you’ll discover is yourself.”

I’d love to hear your experiences with meditation. It’s a practice that is unique to every individual.

5 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Diane Struble
    Jan 17, 2021 @ 16:24:18

    Happy it brought you happiness.  Contentment is important.  Lots of storm clouds on the horizon, but some shafts of sun getting through in our world.  I think that light will be your inspiration.

    Liked by 1 person


  2. writingforselfdiscovery
    Jan 17, 2021 @ 16:56:19

    Those shafts of light are long-awaited. I buried myself in the news and thought the storm would never end. From politics to pandemic – it just kept getting worse. And worse! I’m still holding my breath but there’s hope.



  3. Julie Marshall
    Jan 18, 2021 @ 12:23:59

    I must must must retry meditation! Every time I have tried in the past my mind keeps remining me that it is possible to multi task and refuses to shut off (or up!)
    I am so glad that you have had such a powerful reaction to it and that it has brought you peace.

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    • writingforselfdiscovery
      Jan 18, 2021 @ 15:30:01

      Perhaps try focusing your mind on one thought, or one question. If the mind wanders keep bringing it back. There’s no way to keep thoughts from coming but you don’t have to engage with them. Yes!!! Keep at it!



  4. writingforselfdiscovery
    Jan 18, 2021 @ 15:40:45

    Thank you for this comment, Shane! For some reason it disappeared from this website but it came to my email.

    “Your blog post has influenced my day in a good way. I feel overflowing with happiness.
    You asked about experiences with meditation. My morning meditation always jump starts my day with joy. Recently I’ve begun a group meditation twice a week on Zoom. That is quite different from the meditation I do on my own. Not better, just different.”

    There are so many different ways to meditate. It’s exciting to know that you’re finding joy from your practice! There is infinite information available to us along with abundant joy and wisdom and you’ve tapped in!!!



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