Wind charges through yellowing trees snatching leaves in its turbulent wake. It howls of storms coming, blasting through my southern windows flung wide on this 82-degree day. A few determined Asian Beetles cling to the screens momentarily, then are ripped away in the gale. Good riddance. Yesterday was just as hot with NO wind. Thousands of those nasty insects swarmed the doors and windows, finding their way into the house.
But moving on…
Fall in Minnesota is predictable in its unpredictability. Today we sweat; tomorrow it snows. Any atmospheric conditions that prevail are less aberration than expectation. My weather app says rain for the next four days. That should wipe the trees of any leaves the wind has missed.
I’m in a pensive mood. Several days ago, I received an email from an old friend from the writers’ group in Bali. Steve was the glue, the force of nature that held the group together and maintained order when egos clashed, and trust me, no one has more volatile egos than writers critiquing other writers.
Steve sent the email to others in the group, and over the past few days they have responded with updates about their published works. One just landed a three-book contract. It was thrilling to hear of their successes.
But…
All I could report were a few frivolous poems and periodic posts to my blog. Emotions rippled through me. I suddenly missed ‘the group’ terribly, the people, the camaraderie, the challenge to constantly improve, and the writing. How I missed the thrill of creating on the page.
Boohoo. Poor me. What have I done since our last meeting in 2019? Why haven’t I written if I love writing so much?
Well, first there was the month in Italy on the Amalfi Coast. Fabulous!
Then two years of Covid and monkey infestation in Bali. Devastating.
Then there was a nine-month adventure in Mexico. Delightful!
And then…
I moved to The Family Farm and it’s been nonstop physical labor for the past year. Joyfully productive and exhausting.
Choices.
I made them.
Well, except for Covid. I didn’t choose Covid, and I didn’t choose not to write. During that time, fighting monkeys and trying to maintain a shred of sanity, I was mentally and emotionally incapable of writing.
Steve’s email and the responses from those who were my peers have inspired me. I’ve located the draft of Nettle Creek. I know if I start rereading it, I’ll start rewriting it, marking changes in red on every page. My pensive mood will pass. I’ll be hooked and obsessed with writing again.
So here I am. The construction on my garage/loft/deck/entryway addition isn’t finished, but I have hired help to do the work. Bear has moved into his ‘project’, so there’s no need for me there. I have free time for the first time since coming here.
It’s sitting there, staring at me, daring me to pick it up. Nettle Creek: a fictionalized story of this very area: rural northern Minnesota. When I began writing the saga of Stella, I had no idea I would be returning here, that I would complete the novel on site.
Freakishly synchronistic.
Did I just say complete the novel? Okay, but not quite yet. Short days and long nights loom on the horizon. Right now, though, October’s Bright Blue Weather beckons me outside, tempts me to collect wild turkey feathers, harvest cattail bouquets, and breathe in the dusky scents of autumn.
But winter’s coming…
stevecastley
Oct 04, 2023 @ 11:27:36
Thanks for this update on life. I’m thrilled you are back to writing. I too have jumped back into Under Drought Skies, the sequel to The Maiden Aunts. Oh how I love a writing challenge. So do you.
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writingforselfdiscovery
Oct 04, 2023 @ 11:39:20
You’ve leaped! I’m still thinking about thinking about it. But writing is who I am and what I do when life isn’t in survival mode. I’m ready to get back to THAT me.
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Anonymous
Oct 04, 2023 @ 11:53:02
Yes, yes. Those winter projects. I love it when the snow flies! Who knows, you may even find a new writer’s group, in person or on line. Do you follow Susan Wittig Albert? A prolific writer and writer’s group fosterer. Perhaps there are suggestions there. In any case, hunker down and enjoy…when winter comes.
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Anonymous
Oct 04, 2023 @ 13:11:19
Thanks for another lovely update! Always look forward to your emails. Keep the writing alive and, yes, winter is coming. A lot of indoor time working on a goal. All the best
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writingforselfdiscovery
Oct 04, 2023 @ 16:58:56
Thank you for keeping in touch. Let’s see, a goal. I’ll have to think about that!
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shanemac
Oct 04, 2023 @ 19:07:44
I always admire people (I mean you Sherry) who can take something like a few dried cattails, a turkey feather, and turn it into a work of art.
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Anonymous
Oct 04, 2023 @ 23:18:32
And I adore you, Shane, for making me feel special when I’ve done nothing more than thrown a few cattails in a jar and tucked in a turkey feather!
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Anonymous
Oct 04, 2023 @ 23:01:55
…and there she is! A golden voice among the last hues of green. ENJOY the winter flurries to come, as finishing words unfold into spring.
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writingforselfdiscovery
Oct 04, 2023 @ 23:13:33
Beautifully said! Do you write poetry?
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Diane Struble
Oct 05, 2023 @ 02:39:32
Sherry, I
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writingforselfdiscovery
Oct 05, 2023 @ 13:38:52
What, Di?
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Anonymous
Oct 08, 2023 @ 01:55:21
Well. that is interesting. Another tech error by me. I was just going to say that you need to get it finished soon as I will not be around forever. Incidentally, I love your bouquet. You do have a fantastic sense of beauty and decoration.
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writingforselfdiscovery
Oct 08, 2023 @ 06:01:24
I’m trying to be patient but it is a race against the weather! And the bouquet…when the sunflowers went away, cattails remained. My motto is: work with what You’ve got!
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Anonymous
Oct 05, 2023 @ 15:52:17
Good to hear from you as always.Â
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writingforselfdiscovery
Oct 05, 2023 @ 13:36:35
Thank you, Anonymous!
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